During the sunset
I surfed again this afternoon, and the feeling of surfing was still the same like before, challanging. It was a bit cloudy but the sky colour, as usual, was still beautiful.
And I imagined Nigel carrying me at his back during the sunset 1,5 years ago. And I really wanted he's here teaching me how to surf, how to move to the side. While I was moving forward on my board I really wanted to see him at my back giving me applause because I could move smoothly with my board.
And during that time, I met a friend that told me a story about the guy I used to have a crush. He always compare every girls to his gf and never looked around. Well, I always compare every guys with Nigel too, but I have to look a bit closer. And yes, it's a bit challenging for me to get closer to a guy, but at the end I found that my bf is the best one I ever meet. They do look amazing with their muscles, appearances, and how they speak, but when it comes to the heart and personality, Nigel is the winner overall.
I know that my bf is the best among all, but still, he's far. But I wait till he come and I know he will come. He wins my heart, he wins everything.
But I just wanna enjoy my life before I am taken, and I know, I just have very short time....
During the sunset, I am realized,
I am just a human being who can't ignore any temptations....
